Be Healthier, Wealthier, and Happier

From time to time, there is this pit in the stomach type of feeling that seems to be reminding us that we are in danger, something “bad” is going to happen to us, or a sick feeling that we are being “attacked”, “looked down on”, “laugh at”,….It seems that everything directing at us are negatives, criticisms, chipping away any sense of our own worthiness.  We get sad, we get afraid, we get angry and we want to fight back and really give it to those who put these feelings upon us.  How dare they?!!! They are our enemies and we must destroy them.  Right now! 

Does this sound familiar?  The fights we end up having with our loving one, the one we care; at that moment they don’t seems like our love one; they are our enemies and they must be DESTROYED.  Well, most often, we don’t mean destroyed physically (although, in some case it seems to go that extreme), but we will muster all of our know-how to destroy their self-esteem, their accomplishments, their sense of well being and worthiness just like how they appear to be doing it to us.

So, what doe these sounds like?  People at war!  Yes, it all starts from that tingly feeling of insecurity and inferiority we felt about ourselves well within inside of us.  As people, we go to war with people around us base on it.  As a nation, we go to war with other nations base on it. 

That appear seemly innocent seeds of insecurities and lack of confidences really are not as innocent as we make them out to be.  From insecurity, people become jealous of others.  From insecurity, people become paranoid of everything that is said to them. From insecurity, people become envious of others and dissatisfied with what they have.  Insecurity in reality is a powerful destructing energy that disguises itself as a weak, powerless, victim like character.  It gave us righteous reasons to do what we do and say what we say even though for the most part it served only to destroy rather than to heal; it serves to break people apart rather than unite.   The world is where it is because of this collective insecure energy within us.  Inside of these insecurities, everything that is said and done is interpreted as bad and/or insincere.  Inside these insecurities, every neutral intentions and well attempts gets interpreted as conspiracies to destroy.  There are no trust, no hope, no love; just measures and counter measures; the sign of struggling and surviving; not living.

When the moment of our live turn dark and despair,  rather than lashing out and defend, perhaps it’s better to remind ourselves to take a deep breath and check-in to see whether it’s our own demon called Insecurity that is nudging us to do a  foolish thing and say something destructive that we are destine to regret.  It is good to be reminded that our loves one are not our enemies, so stop treating them like one.  The feeling of insecurity comes from within us and NOT from them.  It’s up to us to learn to let go of our own insecurities and embrace our own worthiness day by day and minutes by minutes.  We need to always ask ourselves this question:  If the other person truly having such an ill intention toward us, having such a low opinion of us and/or is as bad of a person as we said they are, then why do we still hang around with them?!!!  What story are we perpetuating here?  If they are truly bad, it is time for us to leave; that would be the courageous thing that we must do to support our own well being.   If they are not truly as bad as we said though, then why are we not protecting, respecting, cherishing and loving them?  What permission are we giving ourselves that we truly have no rights of in ways of how we treat another person?

As a human, we are not mean to be perfect; however, as a human we have infinite capacities to reconcile and bring more lights into our lives and other’s lives.  It all starts from the awareness that our insecurities kills.  It is our responsibilities and NOT other’s responsibility to manage our own demon within moments by moments.  While being a human, we will feel insecure.  It is like weathers, we will get showered on from time to time.  Like dealing with weather, aside from acknowledging and accepting this humanness within us, there is NOTHING we need to do with this insecurity.  

It is amazing to realize that when we stop feeding our own insecurity by acting out from it and respond or react to it in anyways, it stop dominates our live.  Insecurity comes and insecurity goes, before we know it, our focus shifted, our energies changed.  We are no longer so addicted to the dramas that generated from insecurities, instead we have more room to experiment, play and engage with our live.  We no longer need to worry about what other people think, do or said as much.   People are going to think, do or said what they are going to think, do or said.  It really doesn’t impact us until we let it impacts us.   While as a human, it’s difficult to not allow anything to impact us, but even if we only raise our own awareness by 1 % and choose to be secure in the face of our tendency to be insecure just one more time than before, collectively we would have changed the landscape of our life and our environment drastically for the better.  So, is it going to be war or peace?  We choose.

Lately, I am experiencing a lot of tensed relationships around me.  I often wondered how a relationship ends up where they are now.  I am certain that people didn’t decide to marry someone so they can torture each other, tear each other down, criticizes each other and destroying each other’s self esteem.  However, it seems that very often that’s how a marriage ended up.  It’s no wondering that comedian Dave Spade equated marriage like going through the Japanese game show “Wipe out”. Once a while we see one person flying through the obstacle course with ease and grace; most often though, no matter how one tries, we see one quick wipe out after another.

So what are we doing in a relationship that seems to aggravate more than nurturing? What are we not seeing what we are doing that’s causing such turmoil in our live and the live of the one we claimed we love so much that we married?

I just read a book called “The path of least resistance – Learning to become the creative force in your own life” by Robert Fritz.  It got me asking: humm, are we problem solving our relationship or are we creating our relationship?  What’s the difference anyway? 

While the book started kind of slow and the book seem to end on a tangent, I really appreciated how the author clearly distinguishes the difference between creating and problem solving.  He pointed out the importance of having a clear understanding of knowing whether we approach live predominately with problem solving orientation vs. creative orientation.  He further pointed out the pitfalls of mistaking problem solving for creating. 

For most of us, we choose to be in a relationship and we choose to be married.  We choose the person we are in relationship and we choose who we would marry.  In essence, we created our relationship and we created our marriage.  I love what Robert Fritz said about creation.  “The only reason you would create anything is because you LOVE IT ENOUGH to see it exist! “  For any other reasons, we are merely problem solving.  So, if we really sit down, thinking about and reflect, maybe when we thought we “chose” and “created”, we actually went into a relationship or married someone to solve a problem?!!! Perhaps, it’s is our lack of understanding of the difference between creating and problem solving that is tripping us up in life and in relationships?

Moreover, we may have further our own demise when we confusing our wants from our needs.  It is most certain at least for most of us in a free society that relationship and marriage are like a piece of timeless art or music, we really DON’T need to be in a relationship nor be in a marriage to survive. We created our relationship and our marriage just like artists created their art and the composers created their music because we love it enough to see it exist and the creations enriches our lives immensely beyond our basic needs. 

When we hold on, going into a relationship or staying in a marriage with the mistaken notions that we need it, or we are obligated in some way, we essentially killed our possibility to create in these realms; instead we committed our relationship and marriage to endless problem solving and surviving.  If we found our relationship and marriage end up to be merely an exercise of problem solving and surviving rather then endless opportunities to create, perhaps it’s a clear signal for us to stop what we are doing and considered that we may have went off the road and miss the point somewhere.  Rather than continue to slug it out in miseries or just give up, maybe we need to seriously reflecting on where we went off course in the first place?

What I love about learning the realm of creation is that from time to time when a successful artist realized what they are working on clearly won’t fulfill their vision, rather than keep trying to fix what’s clearly not working, they have the freedom to throw away what is not working for them and start over with a blank new canvas.  The vision didn’t change but the approach maybe drastically different.   In the realm of creating a fulfilling relationship and marriage, the opportunity is also there to wipe the slate clean and start over with the same person (the same vision).  However, this is only possible when we clearly know what we want, clearly choose what we want, be willing to be brutally honest with ourselves on our current state of affair so we know how far we are from our vision and where we went off course, dump all of our old resentments and baggage and start over again. 

I am not saying wiping the slate clean and start over is easy to do; I wouldn’t say that it is too hard either.  It’s not easy because it takes courage to face our reality (what it’s so) without pointing finger at anyone or anything.  It’s also not easy because in order for us to face our reality clearly without dramatic smoke screens, we need to train ourselves to let go of our precious ego (or false pride) continuously.  On the other hand, it is not that hard either because when one got clear of what is truly more important to them in their life (creating a fulfilling and peaceful relationship or creating countless trophies that show everyone that “See, I’m right! She’s an irresponsible bitch!” or “See, I’m right! He’s a big ass, no good jerk!”), the mind can switch in a second and actions follows it can changes drastically.  I know it’s possibly because I’ve seen it done over and over by people who found clarity on issues that have troubled them for whole life.  I’ve seen people change their life course just like that; in a second; with clarity!

From reading Robert Fritz’s book, I have a renew hope.  It is possible for all of us to create a great and fulfilling relationship that enriches our life more than torturing our live.  For those who may be struggling, confused, resigned and angry with their current state of affair in their relationship and in their marriage, perhaps it is time to revisit every choices they have made along the way; even the original decision to get into the relationship or the marriage in the first place.  The opportunity to wipe everything clean starts with revisiting these choices and re-choosing them separately and together as a team.  All is well even if upon revisiting that you found the original choice and decision was a mistake; if you had to do it all over again, you would not choose each other.  All is well because this time around, regardless whether you choose to stay or go, you would choose and take a stand for your life out of clarity and nothing else.  If you stay, the team you created with each other would be a totally different team than you created out of a totally different reason.  This time, you will give your relationship and marriage an honest chance because it will come from a place where you brought to existance only because both of you love it enough to see it exist and live on.

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I can no longer imagine a life without Thanksgiving.  It seems like this is the one day that still reminds us to be grateful, to be appreciative of what has been given to us and to encourage the spirit of sharing; no huge religious connotation; just a pure human-to-human love and appreciation.  I love this holiday more than any other holiday I can think of.  This is the holiday that gets my heart pumping looking forward to meeting my relatives and getting a wild feast.  It reminds me to appreciate the life that I got (the whole package the good, bad and ugly), and be grateful that I am surround by people who have a lot of love for me.   I have to admit that it didn’t use to be that way.

When I was in “survival” mode, I could of careless about Thanksgiving.  Every time when I thought of my relatives, it reminded me of what they didn’t do for me and what wrong they have done on me.  Who want to spend holiday with them anyway.   I used to attend family get together out of obligation.  The thought of it was painful!

So, what changed me?  I guess through out my years of personal development, I finally figure out what forgiveness is all about.  THAT was a hard one for me to learn.   I was a stubborn one and not the fastest learner J  yet when there is will there is way, 20 years later and I lost count of how many personal development courses I took later, my light bulb on this finally came on.   I finally let go of my hate.  Whatever the hate and grudge I hold on to, from 2 year old to 10 year old to 40 year old… I let go! I let go for my sake and not for anyone else’s sake; like a ton of bricks that I finally given myself the permission to throw away.   Surprisingly, compassion flew in and forgiveness followed.  All there left is the gratefulness of being alive and new awareness that people are really NOT that bad; just given them the space to be who they are and make peace with myself to give myself space to be who I am.  I didn’t quite expect that at all.  My focus was all about realizing how continue carrying these dead weights in my heart really started to bother me; it didn’t serve any purpose for me other than making me more tired; it hurt me more than anything.  I couldn’t stand having them around anymore!  So, I let go!  What a surprise!

What are paths to happiness and peaceful living everyday?  This has been a question that I have pondered for years.  Through out the years, as I have slowly chipping away many things that I thought it was “me” but really not and start substituting the space with behaviors, people and habits that enriches me, I discovered that my life has indeed being quite happy and peaceful.  (This doesn’t mean I am never upset or angry or being judgmental, it just means that I get over quicker and often even upset turned into some wonderful golden nugget insight after I looked deeper and I often end up feeling quite grateful afterward for the broader prospective I discovered as result from it).  But, I still couldn’t quite put my fingers on articulating what the path to happiness and peaceful living really look like.

This morning as I was roaming about in my home and in the grocery store doing grocery shopping (my frig. is completely empty!), it dawn on me that one clear path to happiness and peaceful live is definitely being drama free!!! 

I’ve notices one thing that it really made a difference to me is when I decided to stop being interested in dramas around me nor do I feel obligated that I must participate or engage in the drama that is unfolding in front of me in any shape or form (i.e. taking sides, gossiping, joining in making others wrong or someone right, feeling guilty for being who I am…)!  I stopped feeling I absolutely need to join any drama just to fit in this world.  As I stopped giving my interest to my friends’ sob stories, my own sob stories … funny thing happened:  my own sob stories disappeared; those friends who used to love to “stop” in to share their sob stories for hours disappeared.  I really thought I would miss them a lot!  But the incredible thing is I discovered that I really didn’t!  I thought I’ll be really lonely with no friends to “fill” my life anymore,  but instead I found my life got all filled up with one idea after another and one dream after another that I can’t wait to go execute them! (This website being one).  Also, different types of friends start showing up in my life; those that want to discuss their ideas, their dreams and what they are up to with me, not just their sob stories.  Wow, in hindsight, I should have made this trade long time ago!!

I decided I still love dramas, but just not in my life and in my surrounding.  If I want drama, I would happily pay the $10 to go see it in a movie theatre or just give myself permission to play couch potatoes for couple hours and catch some soap opera on TV.  But in my own life, I’m declaring a drama free zone.

1) Just be happy
2) Repeat step 1